It’s dark, quiet and still, I’m alone
where am I? I feel around me, touch hard walls and ceiling
Oh god I’m still in the machine, I can’t move, I scream,
I wake in a sweat –
Thank god, it’s a dream
But today it’s real,
I’ll quietly submit to the needles and tubes
I’ll appear chatty and cheerful and easy to handle
Time to take my pill
I lie on the hard bed, it hurts my back, my heart starts to race
They eyepads and earplugs are put into place
They fasten my head down.. I I want to break free
OK, breathe – the pill’s kicking in
My heart slows down the noises begin
loud, concussive, incessant – no rhythm just sound
I remember my dream and shiver in fear
It’s cold in here
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